Here I Grow Again

Stretching, reaching, stepping outside that comfort zone 

that encircles me.

Growing.

Who'd-a thought it would take me

44 years

to realize

It's not inside this box that life happens.

It's in abandoning the ordinary,

the what I'm used to,

the what feels comfortable

And in embracing what's new,

different,

and stimulating to the senses

that forces growth

and emergence.

Be brave.

Grow with me.

Blue Skies, and Final Clues

{View from our room, inside.}

Whenever we complain of the humidity or heat during the summer,

My child's memory of the summers of my youth

Always, always include crisp, blue skies...

{my yogi friend, sun salutation}

Blue like you've never seen before.

It had been so long since I had seen a blue sky like that

That I was starting to think it was just my mind's eye

Making the memory vibrant

Like everything else a child does.

Until we got there.

And it was oh-so blue!

And the sand dunes, so tall

Perfect for "sliding",

Coating the skin with tiny silicon crystals

And reviving the child within.

The freshest, most yummy seafood ever.

I know he would rather have been playing

In the blue waters 

Under the blue skies

Next to the sand slides.

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There had been reports of huge Great Whites off the coast before we arrived.

But this is the head of a huge seal,

And these are his family and friends.

I am sure they are what brought the Great Whites.

They are so beautiful

that I hated the thought.

Then I found this and realized

It's such a strange circle of life.

Well, hello there!

{Welfleet, Cape Cod, Massachusetts}

Finding Peace

Because I don't like leaving things unfinished...

And because I enjoy reliving the memories...

And still have some to share...

We were 12 women who left behind 12 husbands

and 30-some children

for 4 days

in the middle of September.

 We ate...

And drank...

And played Banana-grams.

 We shopped at yummy places...

 And searched for sea-treasures...

 And watched the light dance on the sea-grass...

 And found some mama peace within.

(Where in the world were we?)

iLove

A week ago Saturday, my computer crashed. Yup, it did. Black screen. Complete implosion.

I sat there looking at, as it stormed outside, and I was in a panic to contact all of our soccer families to let them know the game was cancelled. All I could think was, "really."

The computer seemed to be symptomatic of my life. Full to the brim, working and grinding to take care of it all, memory full, one program slowing down the next, loading... loading... loading... until it couldn't handle it anymore.

Then it just turned itself off. 

Hmmm.

I love this blogging, and I'm not even sure why. An out-loud diary of sorts, exposed for all to see, risking for the chance to connect. But when the computer is broken, the photos are inaccessible, the soul is weary, it becomes a task-and I don't need anymore tasks.

I visited my Apple store. They fixed my computer. For free. The genius at the genius bar was wearing a t-shirt that said, "Not all heroes wear capes." How he was my hero that day! He found the problem {graphics chip} fixed my computer {did I mention, for free?} and restored my 13,000 photos {that's embarrassing}, and made it possible for me to blog again.

I love all things apple. iLove. iPhone. iPod. iGenius. 

I hope you've been well.

what we see

So, when we arrived in this mysterious place, one of my friends pointed out a heart-shaped rock. My real world immediately slammed into blogworld and "love thursday", and seeking out heart-shaped rocks became our new past time.

Mostly, I think they were doing it for me.

You know, so I'd have something to take a picture of.

And, so, I started to think.

Before someone pointed it out, they were just rocks.

But once the idea was suggested, we saw them everywhere.

I wonder how often in life this happens, that we see what is suggested to us?

Or that we miss the beautiful things because we fail to look a little more closely?

So, what do you see?

Rocks, or a beach littered with all sorts of treasure?

Here's to girlfriends!